gone ~ Writing for Gracie and Gracie’s Writing Contest!

See, I am alive!

I’m just in the middle of doing four different types of Social Studies homework (yes, four). But I am back. And my homework has not killed me (yet!!!!).

Anywho, Gracie and Gracie are hosting a writing contest and yes, you go me right, just to add a whole heap more onto my workload I entered. After five goes at 750 words each I finally finished on a final copy of my story I’m proud of. Well, please with at least. I’m not oo sure about it, to be honest. But Gracie said it was good so that’s high praise indeed! But I’ll leave the rest up to you guys. gone is as follows.

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gone.

Emily Kirk

We’re all like blades of grass

We come to prime and in time we just wither away

~Alessia Cara

‘It’s your choice,’ she shrugged, ‘You can continue with this worthless life, or you can become someone who matters.’ Her face was grim but the words she spoke – however harsh – were sincere and clearly meant for the best. They were meant as ‘constructive criticism’. I hated those words. For my whole life everyone had given me ‘constructive criticism’. AKA, telling me I was completely and utterly wrong. With EVERYTHING I did. And now, now it was getting to be too much. Far, far too much. But what she said was true. I could continue as I was now, miserable and lonely, or I could change my life, somehow find a way to make it better. Somehow.  It was always somehow…

Somehow…that was how I’d managed to reach where I was now. Sitting across from her, staring at the lake while she read her book. The lake. Blue and shimmering, the opposite of my mood. My life, really. With it’s pink clouds and intricate reflection details, it really was beautiful. Not like me, not like my life. Oh, no. Not at all. But oh well. Maybe, life didn’t matter like they say it does. No, I don’t think it does. But then again, I don’t matter either so, oh well. That was just my life. My views.

My views…my views of where I was now? Really, I realised, really, I wasn’t there, wasn’t talking to her, sitting by the lake. Not really. That was all in my head. But I didn’t know where I really was. Where my correct body was. On a bridge overlooking a lake, maybe, surrounded by trees in gorgeous autumnal colours. A little house on the side of the hill. Nestled into the crook of a clearing. Maybe. Where did these thoughts come from? Where was I really? Look, the chance of being there was slim. Almost non-existent. But maybe, who knows, I was really there. In the clearing by myself. Maybe that would change me. Help me to get better. To fix the shatterings in my head. But only if I was really there. Which I wasn’t. Because I didn’t know where I was. Because life was so horrible that there was nowhere for me to be, to really and truly be. But that was what life had always been. Well, all I’d ever known. A life of fostering, of new places, of running away, of ‘constructive criticism’. Life had always been full of the things I’d hated. So why would this other new place make any difference? It wouldn’t. So why would I bother? I wouldn’t. It made no sense.

Sense… Life made none of it! Or was it just me? It was always ‘just me’, every time. For no particular reason. So what was the point of having me? For a fun game, a toy? No? What was it then? It wasn’t like I made money, was smart, pretty, all the rest. Literally, I was ‘just me’. That’s what they always said after they took me in. That I was just me. Nothing special. Oh well. Again. Life is another of those ‘oh well’ things. It comes and goes and is forgotten. Do you remember those who were there before you? Who placed their feet where yours are now? No, you don’t. And in years to come, your steps will be forgotten just as equally. All that will be left of you is dust and those steps you took, no matter how large, will be gone. And you won’t be able to get them back. That’s just as it is.

What is really the point in going on? Is there any? There really is none. Why continue? Just for fun? But there is no fun. So I’ll go. Not just in thoughts, in life. Because I’ve not a clue where I am, what I am, who I am, what I want. I won’t continue. I’ll be where I am not, on the bridge over that lake, where the trees bloom gold and the cottage sits nestled into the clearing. Because there I’m where life goes to die. Just as the leaves on the trees are. Just like I will.

And so I jump.

All I had were thoughts about the past

And a list of my favorite songs to keep me company

But I still struggle and lose myself every day

~Real Friends

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As per usual, the main character died. This time though, she killed herself, not just somehow got killed. Very sad, I know. But it seems like a good-ish piece of work! However, I’d really love your feedback on it because I know that several of you are writers/readers and so have the sort of knowledge that I may lack! (A.N. See, I’m wide awake today!)

Oh, you guys are awesome. The confidence thing I posted about in my last post has had so much support. Thank you so much, all of you. I’ll be posting that soon, so keep your eyes open!

so, what’d you think? what can i change? what’d i do wrong? was it a little deep for a 13-year-old? although, you oughta see my recent artworks, they’re rather, er, heavy. or deep! I might share them with you. if i ever remember!

Love you all!

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I’m Not Dead (no, really!!!) + I AM DYING + Confidence

I AM STILL ALIVE!

Well, not really and truly, more like in a sort of dreamish state of half-consciousness.

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Please, I am still here and will be blogging more. It’s just, um, there are so many different things going on in my life but I will be here. I AM still here, just very little and very busy, but really, I am here. I am writing a story for the lovely Gracie, watching YouTube, reading thousands of posts, doing homework and…of course, blogging! And Grammarly is hating me. But really, I will be here and I am here. Just give me until March to get settled (back) into my routine and begin blogging again. I’m sorry. But I will be posting before then.

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And the reason I am not here…because I really am dying. I am just not dead, yet. It is because of homework and very boring school days. Yes, very boring. At school today they decided to have a ‘boredom’ day where they gave us only very boring lessons. ie., English test, not sewing in fashion, maths bookwork and deadly discus. We called it that. Deadly discus because it really is. And then there is homework. The boringist thing ever. I love studying. I love work. I love school. But I hate homework. Well, boring and horrible and awful homework. eg., all homework. We got some, like, book science measuring homework thing yesterday and I really must do it, like I must do this project on a person whose name I have forgotten for social studies. But that’s due Monday, all of it. So I’ve got the weekend to do it. Not now, because I am blogging and listening to classical music (do not judge my music liking, it is just who I am and I now really dislike most pop music because the new stuff is absolute rubbish. Don’t judge!).

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This is the last things for this post and I really need to tell you all about it. Gracie shared an amazing part of her life the other day, talking about how she struggled with friendships and stuff like that (was that right Gracie?) and I wanted to begin to share some of my own confidence/struggles story so you guys can get to know me better. Because it’s not an easy thing to go through, life. But we’re all in it together so we may as well do what we can for each other. I was just wondering how you would all feel about this before I started. I know I’m being very vague and weird today but the sleep lack (11/12-5:45 is not enough sleep!) is totally catching up on me and I am about to fall asleep on the keyboard of the laptop. But, what I’m trying to say is that I would like to share a part of my story (in several posts because that’s how I roll) that you won’t have heard/realised before because they’re sort of things I skim over on here. Like my lack of self-confidence and so on. Would you guys like that?

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please chat with me. before I fall asleep preferably but Mum’s working late tonight so I’ve gotta stay awake ’til, like, 10, but oh well! just chat. about life. about your thoughts on my ideas. about your homework killing you. actually, not that one! but you get it right?!

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The Liebster Award #2

I am BACK!!!

Hiya, I have not been actively blogging for SO LONG now. And I am sorry about that. Literally, now I have so many posts to read since I haven’t since Tuesday morning and EVERYONE seems to have been posting since then. My excuse, SCHOOL. You see, I started High School on Tuesday. Since then I have forgotten my laptop and not been able to post at home because I’m leaving at 7AM and getting back at about 6:30-7PM, although tonight it’s not until 8:30-9PM I’ll be getting home since I travel with Mum and it’s her late night. Hence the laptop. I have been using my phone for reading posts but it’s really annoyingly hard to post/comment on it.

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The lovely Ellie over at Ellie (is that what your blog’s called Ellie?!) nominated me for the Liebster Award which I was previously nominated for here. I do believe, Ellie, that I also nominated you then *checks* yeah, Ellie, I nominated you first!

The Rules

1. Acknowledge the blog that gave it to you and display the award. Done and done!

2. Answer the (10) questions that the blogger gives you.

3. Give some (10) random facts about yourself.

4. Nominate some blogs.

5. Notify those blogs of their nomination. Easy…you all follow me!

6. Give them some (10) questions to answer.

Ellie’s Questions

1. Do you prefer Summer or Winter?

Um……Summer’s nice and all, hot etc., but it makes running hard and our uniforms are dark so you’re constantly sweating I hate sweating. So, Winter. Oh, and my birthday’s in Winter.

2. Who is your favourite blogger and why?

DO NOT GET OFFENDED ANYONE! It really depends what the subject is, but I really love Gracie’s blog because of her amazing ideas and beautiful stories as well as super kind feedback and stuff. Also, May’s because of her wonderful humorous posts and just overall coolness. But also, I am 100% jealous because she has over 1000 followers and I have just short of 200! 😦 Also, I love you Ellie!

3. What is the most rebel-like thing you have done?

Um, IDK! When I was, like, 8 I stole a friend’s MLP because I was jealous f her having it. I think it’s still at home somewhere. Is that rebel-like enough?!

4. Do you like school?

What kind of question is this?! But yes, depending on the type of school, yes I do like school. I loved my last school but can’t really rate the current one on three days y’know!

5. What is your favourite thing to do?

Run, stretch, crochet or write. That’s four favourites. Writing encompasses blogging, novel, notes, poetry, school writing etc. too. But I love being outside what I’m doing all of the above too, I love the fresh air outside.

6. Describe your ideal bedroom!

OH! Where to start?! Well, I’m getting my room repainted at the moment (read: I am painting it and the process is very slow and drawn out because I have all sorts of other things that have fun distracting me from it *cough* school *cough*) and that process is going rather well. I’m painting it white with turquoise curtains and a turquoise pelmet (thing above the door). It’s almost my dream bedroom.

My dream bedroom would be heaps bigger (double the size) with the same coloured walls and accessories. It would have a little alcove in one corner with a window and a window seat so I could soak up the sun while blogging (because the laptop has not wi-fi outside), the seat would HAVE to have a fluffy seat/cushion too! In white of course. I live my bed so I’d keep that. Um, I’d have a huge desk with a amazing shelving/storage unit above it on the South side of the room with a huge window above the desk. There wuld be a huge French door set on the East wall and a massive bookshelf (and I mean MASSIVE) on the North wall, this and the East wall encompass the window seat. The West wall would be the wall with the bed, a walk in closet (dressing room with a huge vanity and mirror and an en suite next door which is inaccessible from the bedroom (aka, it is HIDDEN). There is also a huge fluffy turquoise rug RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FLOOR. And shelves around the room in places like above the bed and stuff.

7. If you where invisible for a day, what would you do?

OK! This would be fun. I’d definitely spend an awful lot of time freaking my sisters out because they deserve it and all. Then I would do all the things I can’t do when I’m visible like, um, I don’t know…cook whatever I like? Raid the pantry of all the good dark chocolate? Find all the good fabric in the house and steal it so I can sew amazing clothes with it!!!!! 🙂

8. Why did you start blogging?

Urgh, how many times do I need to explain?! I started blogging to share my homeschooling journey, it spiraled from there.

9. Show your most recent picture on your phone!

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This is our house in the sunset from the rabbit cage (one of them) a couple of nights back.Much better in real life though!

10. Do you have an allergy?

Yes. A severe allergy to bee stings. It’s not good.

My Nominees:

Anyone who follows me!

My Questions for YOU:

  1. When did you start blogging?
  2. What is one thing that you regret most about not doing in 2017?
  3. What are you looking forward to most for February?
  4. What’s your favourite childhood memory?
  5. Have you ever broken something of someone else’s, what?
  6. How many blogs do you follow, what are they?
  7. What’s the best book you’ve read so far this year?
  8. How many emails do you have in your inbox?
  9. What was the last thing you looked up on Google/Bing?
  10. How much homework do you currently have?!

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So, goodbye. I litterally have to run and then do homework which I should have done before I wrote a blog post. Oh well! French and Social Studies homework and I should have had PE and Health but I forgot it, oops!

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The Change Award – Gracie’s New Award!

I LOVE awards!

Huge thanks to Gracie for creating and nominating me for this award!  Let’s get on with it!

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The Rules: 

  • Link back to Gracie, as well as whoever nominated you.
  • Include this: I, Gracie Chick of A Light In The Darkness, created this award to highlight the importance of young people taking responsibility for the future of their world. The Change Award also gives them the opportunity to share with others what they believe in.
  • Answer the questions below
  • Nominate as many people as you like.

The Questions:

Make a list of the things you want to change about schools.

Make a list of the things you want to change about local communities.

Make a list of the things you want to change about the world, your world.

My Answers:

Question #1:

  • Students having the ability to control their own learning more and find ways of teaching/learning that suit them best. This is something that I discovered at school this year, the teachers letting us find ways of learning. I think that it could be introduced into as many schools as possible to make it work better. 
  • Not excluding people because of their differences but embracing these and making sure these students are included in the classes. This is something that happens a lot, I’ve noticed. But if you help those kids they’ll be so much happier and their learning will skyrocket.
  • Having more classes on diversity and other cultures. Teaching things like the religions and beliefs of other countries other than our own is something that is super important and stops people from just downing/doubting others from different countries. I didn’t get to, but was going to do a project on worldwide religions when I was homeschooled in 2016. This is the sort of thing that opens the eyes of people who have no clue and give them a new perspective on the world.
  • Less testing. End of.
  • More skills that will be useful in later lives. I mean, who needs to know ten different ways to solve 34×5? We’ll never need to know/use all of them, just one that suits us will work. Things like banking, debating, questioning and thinking on our own are so much more important. 
  • Allow the students to have their say and speak out. Give them the feeling that they are very important. Teaching health and talking to the students will also help with everything. I think that all of the above will help to cease mental health issues. Opening up children and letting them talk – truly talk – means that they drop their covers and open up about their mental health. I’ll be doing a few posts on this soon.

Question #2:

  • I’m gonna steal one of Gracie’s here but exaggerate it a bit: A better selection of YA books in libraries lol. We need more books that tell us about the world and open us up to what it’s really like. You can’t go straight from children’s to adults books without anything in between to help you. I think teens don’t read much because we don’t think that we have the books. We do, but their not the books we need to read. We need the books that help us to extend our thinking and show us things. Personally, Thirteen Reasons Why, Walk in My Shoes and One Thousand Hills showed me exactly what it really is like. Not what people say it is, making the real world lovely and fun. Oh, and Staying Strong
  • Allowing people their say and talking to them. You want to empower them and make them important. Even if you don’t like their opinion, they may not like yours but they still listened to it. You can question them and discuss what they think. It’ll make it a better place.
  • Not downing people of different races/religions/views/skin colours. Their say is just as important as yours and they may be able to help you with something. They are real people too, even if they are from a different country, do believe in a different God, don’t agree with your views or have a different colour of skin.
  • More community events and time. We’re heading to a ‘end of the holidays’ thing this afternoon that’s a huge community thing. It’s these sorts of things that we need more of. Just giving the community time to have fun and relax. Community gardens would also be very good. With the produce going to those in need, it’d make the world a nicer place.

Question #3:

  • Well, as Gracie said in her post, the above, but bigger. Really big. On a global scale. 
  • A global effort to help with mental health and make people feel better about themselves. And the same but for poverty. 
  • Cheaper healthy food and drinks. Also clean water for the world. That’d be a huge thing to do but it would help the world bit by bit. And cheaper books too!

My Nominees:

I have to say, Gracie, you DID NOT make this easy by taking half my nominees! Anyway, I nominate…

Have fun!

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Thanks Gracie!

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Before Fall Movie Review + Notes for Bookworms on Movies

This could get rather interesting!

No, very interesting. I watched the movie Before I Fall last night. Near the beginning of last year I read and reviewed this in book form and IT WAS AMAZING! And…I hated the movie with anguish. Is that the right wording? I don’t care. It was painful how much I hated it. It was painful to watch AND I STAYED UP UNTIL 11:30PM WATCHING IT!

I think the big thing was that after reading the book, I had this idea in my head about how the movie should have gone but it didn’t. I mean, the actress playing Sam – Zoey Deutch (who is in Ed Sheeran’s music video for Perfect BTW) – didn’t even look like Sam! How can they do that to me?! But the whole movie just wasn’t very well done. I mean, my expectations were VERY HIGH due to an amazing book but I am really regretting watching this movie.

It took me four days of having the movie sitting in my room to actually convince Mum and Dad to watch it with me and so I was really looking forward to it. So…when it was tragically not very good, I was incredibly disappointed. Maybe my expectations are too high? Or maybe it was really an awful movie?

Another bad thing was that you didn’t even learn Elody’s name until about half way through and none of them looked like they were described? The only character who I actually sort of expected was Juliet, but they didn’t even tell you too much about her so that was equally as disappointing. The four girls (Sam, Lindsay, Ally and Elody) were slightly odder than in the book and the details of things like the party were blown out (exaggerated) in several places…or they were completely excluded!

When the odd things started happening in chapter 5 of the book, they took no time at all in the movie and happened in the first 10 minutes! AND THE ROSE WAS THE WRONG COLOUR! HOW COULD THEY GET THAT MASSIVE DETAIL WRONG?! The rose from Kent was meant to be cream, not cream and red! I was very upset about that detail, it’s an easy detail to GET RIGHT!

Also, they missed and changed several days so they made no sense. It was irritating because they didn’t remember to tell you important details and so it was just bizarre. I mean, suddenly Izzy and Sam were running around randomly and it seemed to be before school…and then they were sitting on the bed in their pyjamas?! What happened there?

There were only five real days where you saw Sam wake up, instead of the original seven that were in the book. Although it seemed to be heaps more that five because they did some weird repetitive stuff with her getting out of bed and walking to the window which made no sense. It really annoyed me and I am now SCARRED FOR LIFE. I also need to find this book in a library and reread it to get the correct story into my head and remove the damage that the movie did to me.

Even my parents – who watched the movie with me and have never read the book – said that it was not very good. Dad said to say that ‘this was not a chick flick, it was a shit flick’. He couldn’t stop talking about it today! He also said that I could say this on here because he said it!

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A Note to All Bookworms

If you love a book DO NOT WATCH THE MOVIE FOR IT! The only good movie of a book that I’ve read was The Fault in Our Stars, but all the others (I’m talking to you Harry Potter) were completely awful. I mean Divergent forgets Uriah, half the detail in Percy Jackson and the Sea of Monsters is forgotten and so on. This rant/complaint/one-sided discussion could go on forever. I have a love of movies and a love of books but these loves combined do not work to well. Unfortunately for me!

Simply, my note to all bookworms:

DO NOT WATCH THE MOVIE IF YOU LOVED THE BOOK…LIKE, A LOT.

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What do you think about this topic? Have you watched the movie, what did you think of it? Are there any books with good movies that you’d recommend? Care to chat about your opinion and join in my discussion via comment? I am also thinking of doing a whole post devoted to the topic if you’d like to see it and I promise it won’t be as bias as this one!

Please note: This was all my opinion, so do not judge or hate me for it. I am here to share what I want and so I will.

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9 Tips for Beginner Runners

Running is my LIFE.

All you have to do is head over to the ABOUT page and you will see it screaming at you LOUD AND CLEAR. But that aside, let’s get into this post!

I have had several people asking me if I had any tips for beginning to run. Both IRL and through here that is. But…there is just ONE reason for this: New Years Resolutions. Or so they say. I’ll just say I do NOT believe in the horrible things. They make no sense.

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#1: Take it EASY to start with

I am not the best role model of this, I started off running 2km then 4km then running two lots of that 4km. I think this took about 1 month in total. I was running an average of 68km weekly. I’m not that good a resource to tell you to start easy but really, I’d recommend it. If you don’t you WILL get injured and then you will not be able to run. And I can tell you, that will not bode well for your New Years Resolutions.

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#2: Mix up your runs

If you run the same run everyday (eg. a 4km over the same path) it will get boring. Trust me, I did it for about 10 weeks. Twice a day. With the weekends off to do runs that involved running that same 4km 2-4 times. It got super boring…super fast. Now I’m running several different runs a week on a mix of gravel, grass and tarmac. It makes for much more interesting runs that are way more enjoyable. I’m also running a mixture of distances and adding things into them. I’ll give you an example of a running workout that I did on Tuesday below.

Warm up, (400m, 300m, 200m, 100m) x 2 – all at 95% effort with 60 seconds recovery between reps and 3 mins between the 2 sets, cool down

Pretty much what I did was I jogged for about 1.5km and stretched, did a few quick 50m sprints and a few warm up drills, (I do not use this workout but it is a good idea to) then I did the sprint lengths at a pace not full sprint (95%) and had a minute of very slow jogging between. finished the first repeat, took 3 minutes at a slow jog and repeated it. Then I cooled down with a jog for about 1.5km and a full stretch. It was hard and my hamstrings are still aching but it was really good.

That workout is a rather hard one that I’d only recommend when you know your limits. It can be made easier by skipping the second repeat. I enjoyed it though. I ran an easy (50% pace or so) 30 minute run this morning with the drills after, just to give you an idea of the mix I run.

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#3: Find a running buddy or group

I don’t run with anyone, preferring to be alone, but many people prefer to run with someone, as it gives them someone to keep pace with and gives them a little company. There are many different groups out there that run once or twice a week. Just look them up or look around in town or whatever. You’ll find them!

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#4: Take at least one day off a week

I can tell you, I didn’t used to do this and it meant that I was running everyday, usually more than once and my body was getting super sore. When I ran my half-marathon in July, I ran the morning before and after and my body was super sore for weeks afterwards. Now that I’m taking a day off a week it means that my body is not as sore and the muscles are having time to recover before I run. The easy runs I’m doing also help with this.

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#5: Listen to your body

This is super important. If you get a slightly off muscle and you keep running hard on it, your risk of injury will be much higher than if you run easily on it after you notice it and take a day off running. It’ll do you more good to take a day off than risk having to take weeks off due to injury. I can tell you firsthand that I know how hard it is. I’ve had to take a week off due to sickness but really, it was better to take that week off rather than take a month off later because I was that sick or had injured myself. You just keep training afterwards like nothing has happened.

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#6: Run to music

I don’t do this as I run in the middle of a road and I can’t hear very well in the first place and I don’t feel like being run over! BUT…if you run on footpaths you can definitely run to music. It has been proven (by scientists and MOI) to increase your speed and it (apparently???) burns more calories. I’m not too sure about the latter, but the speed is definitely increased. It also takes your mind off any pain in your body when your running which means that it doesn’t hurt anymore!

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#7: Keep your energy levels up

Another important one. KEEP YOUR ENERGY UP. I didn’t keep my energy up and my running times and efforts were awful. It also leaves you not wanting to run. Whether your energy is from food or sleeeeeeeeeeeeep (or both of the above) it is super important. Nothing more to say, just eat and sleep well!

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#8: Stretch AFTER you run

Always. Stretch. AFTER. You. Run. If you don’t then your muscles will be super sore the next day. This is not good. I can tell you and it is will help stop injuries. Which is good. Look up stretches up on YouTube and you will find thousands of different videos of stretches. Just choose stretches you like and don’t push yourself too hard.

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#9: HAVE FUN!!!

This is by far the most important on here. WHY DID I LEAVE IT TO THE END??? To see if you’re still reading? IDK! But yes, having fun is the most important thing to anything. If you don’t feel like running one day, don’t do it. You will NOT  enjoy yourself. And that is not what you want. Not enjoying yourself will put you off running…and we don’t want that, do we?! Of course not. So just have fun. If you take just one thing from here it would be HAVE HEAPS OF FUN!

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I really hope that helps those of you who wanted it! Maybe I should take my own advice on these thing?! I don’t. Anyway.

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Let’s put a stop to Animal Testing.

Hi guys,
This is such an important message to spread. Thank you Tabi for sharing this!

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Hello hedgehogs,

I’m afraid this won’t be like normal posts, it’s more of a rant and informing you how YOU can help to end this. *Caution* read the links about animal testing at your own risk. They aren’t too graphic, but could cause upset.

I’m sure a huge, huge amount of you already are completely aware and against this. But if we all knew or cared about it, it wouldn’t still be a thing.

IMG_0169 Gorgeous Reenie :))

Animal. Testing. Since when did those two words become such a normal phrase? Who in there deluded mind would think humans are superior enough to force helpless animals to be tested on? The animal kingdom has been here since way before us, so how come just because we have two legs to walk on and a voice box, we suddenly have the right to inflict prolonged pain (and a lot more much, much…

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The Fog – Sad Story + Birthday Wishes!

You asked for writing!

And……I give you what you want. You guys are soooooooooooooooo lucky!

Just a brief intro for this piece, we were often asked to write stories at school using Pobble365 to find picture prompts . This story is written from one of these pictures, it’s the photo from March 17th and was originally called ‘Into the mist’.  It was not written that long ago, I think I wrote it at the end of November? But, this is The Fog.

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The Fog

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The fog surrounded her, a thick, grey blanket. It crept up her legs, jumping up the snow white dress she wore, eating her slowly. Her dark, tousled hair flowed down her back in a waving torrent, a dark waterfall. The lantern she held in her hand flickered, a futile attempt to stay alight. It died.

        A sound, a rustle behind her. The girl jumped, startled and spun, staring about her in alarm. Nothing, there was nothing there. She straightened the halo of flowers atop her head and continued on her way. The water – as that’s what she struggled aimlessly through – crept up her legs. It reached her thighs and she shivered with cold – or maybe it was fear. She continued on; a lone figure in a city of death.

Everything about the city was dead. It was grey, a city of skeletons. The ships she headed hopelessly toward were just skeletons, old remnants of a life once gone. Without the light everything was dangerous – or so it seemed. The borderline of wire – barbed and threatening – loomed to her right. She steered herself away from it, the unbeknown fence, no one had passed it’s barrier and made it back. For all she knew at her young age, no one had passed it. She was young and ignorant.

The Spectres had taken the life from the place. Everything was scary, the people gone. The Spectres had taken everything and left the city in ruins.

She continued on into the fog. Walking on and on. It leapt and yanked. Spun and recoiled. She continued on and on. The fog shrouding her small body until she was overtaken by it. It pulled at her and the last amount of energy she had left in her left the body and she was under.

The last star in a city gone. An angel. Gone to the arms of the fog.

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I have to admit, just reading that, that it is very deep and sad. It’s not the nicest story ever, but it is my sort of style, I’ve got several more. Something you need to know about me: I always kill off story characters. Always… Every. Single. Time. I’m not very nice. But, that’s just my style. And usually it’s the main character that I kill off. Or their best friend. Or their parents. Or all of the above!

But…What did you think of it? Did you like me death scene?

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Happy Birthday Briar!

Well, happy slightly late birthday at least. I told her I’d give her a shout out on her for her birthday, so there it is, just for you Briar. A birthday shout out. Her birthday was the 12th if you were wondering. Happy birthday if yours was too!

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Reflecting on 2017: Books I Read!!!!!

I promise this is the last post in this series!

I LOVE BOOKS! AND BLOGGING! AND RECAPPING! SO, WHY NOT COMBINE THE THREE! THAT’S WHAT I’M GOING TO DO!!!

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The Books I Read

We’ll begin with a quick list of the books I read (in reading order), an because I really did not want to take up lines and lines of you time, I put them all onto a Google Doc for you! It’s only 93 sadly.

Best Books

 

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DO NOT KILL ME FOR NOT GIVING YOU THE WHOLE COVER, THE PROGRAM WOULD NOT LET ME!

Looking at those books, I liked a lot of the books I read this year! I’d rate this mix an average of 4.25 stars. My 5 star books would be: Staying Strong by Demi Lovato, If I Stay by Gayle Forman, The Changeover By Margaret Mahy and Walk In My Shoes by Alwyn Evans. They were all amazingly beautiful books that I would fully recommend.

Books I Didn’t Like

Unliked Books

 

 

There are a lot of books there, but my reasoning is that if I get over one chapter through I have to finish the book. Unfortunately I managed to do that with those books. So I read them all. I think that the only one I may have a theory of hate for is Lord Valentine’s Castle by Robert Silverberg. I think I hated this because it took me 3 months to read so I’d forgotten the start when I finished it! Don’t hate my list!

Disappointing Books

I could not find a photo of David Hill’s 2016. It was disappointing though.

 

 

The above books were very disappointing. Sorry about the huge photo of The 5th Wave. Is that what’s at the bottom? It is on my screen. Several of these books were the last in the series and were just annoying. There’s also the whole Twilight series in there. It disappointed…a lot. Especially after all the love it’s been given.

Best Book Series

Definitely The Lunar Chronicles. I didn’t read Winter until this year but apart from that, it was all amazing!tlc.jpg Can I just mention that I love that when you put the initials of the series together you get TLC which is kind of cute?!

 

 

 

 

 

Best New Discovery Author

Cecelia Ahern. She’s amazing. I’ve only read Perfect and Flawed of her’s (both 4.5 star books) but they were amazing. Ito read more of her work.

Saddest Books

The saddest books I read this year…

Sad Books

 

 

The Hunger Games was only sad because SPOILER [Rue died] END. Everything Left Unsaid and The Fault in Our Stars were very similar, both about SPOILER [the girl’s boyfriend dying of cancer] END. And, One Thousand Hill and Walk in My Shoes were similarly sad because they were both about immigrants escaping wars. But they all almost made me cry. ALMOST! The only one that made me cry was The Hunger Games.

Senseless Books (but good ones)

These was one book that made no sense but was amazing.

tmc Actually, there was just one. The Moment Collector which was by Jodi Lynn Anderson who also wrote Tiger Lily which was a very good book and I am in the process of rereading. I think that with The Moment Collector it took a lot of rereading and patience to make sure of the details and understand it. It was a very good book though.

 

 

 

Pages Read

Now, I could not do this because it took me AN HOUR to work out the number of pages the other night and when I came back today, THE. TOTAL. WAS. GONE.

THIS IS ME HYPERVENTALATING PEOPLE! MY HARD WORK IS GONE. I MISSED A WHOLE DAY OF BLOGGING BY DOING THAT (AND NOT GETTING OFF THE COMPUTER TO GO TO BED AT 9:30PM WHEN I WAS TOLD) AND SO WORDPRESS CONSEQUENCES ME AS WELL BY DELETING IT. LIFE IS NOT FAIR!

Enough ranting, there is no total page count right now because my brain is screwed from all that hard work…FOR NOTHING! GRRRRRRRRRRR.

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That took an awful lot of time and work. I am so sorry for the lack of posts but I was in Auckland for a track-and-field event and then I was banned from here. I will post more, I promise.

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Reflecting on 2017: Goals for 2018

Welcome to the first day of 2018!

It’s time for new year goals! Maybe SMART goals this year. (SMART standing for: Specific, Measurable, Achievable, Realistic, Timely) Smart also means, you know, smart. Not odd or silly.

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What I need to focus on!

My long list of (achievable) goals for 2018!

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Running:

Improve 1500m time to below 5 minutes 30 seconds. Achievable. I’m on 5:47 now. Just 17 seconds off that and I’ll be sweet.

Improve calf strength. Calf strength is vital. You know, your calves work possibly the hardest of your whole body.

Improve core strength. Yes. It has everything to do with running. Core strength equals stamina.

Do pronation stretches daily. Three words. Look. It. Up.

Blogging:

Reach 300+ followers. I’m on 161 at the moment! Thank you guys!

Post more writing. I’ve got so much writing I could post! And it would seem you wanted to see some?!

Do a collab. If you want to collab, please comment!

Do a guest post. Again, if you want to do one, just comment below!

Hold an event/challenge/contest. This one sounds like fun. I’ve always wanted to do one so 2018 will be the year for it!

Writing:

Finish WIP. This could take some time, but it’ll get there. I really want it finished this year though.

Write daily. I don’t write nearly as much as I’d like so I’m going to set myself a goal to write everyday. Not just some days!

Come up with title for WIP. I don’t think calling it ‘The Untitled’ is a very good idea. So, it needs a title.

Finish outfit designs for WIP. I get really into my characters. I want to know them personally. They are my babies and they need clothes. Specially designed clothes. Just. For. Them!

Reading:

Discover new books. I need to find new books to read. Please, any recommendations would really be apreciated. I’ve just been recommended the Wings of Fire series, the Keepers of the Lost City series and a few others. I’ll tell you when I’ve read them so I can fangirl with you!

Read more variety. I read the same types of books over and over again. Maybe it’s time for a change?

Read 100 books. Last year’s goal. To be completed this year!

Use Goodreads. I really want to start using Goodreads to find books and write reviews on. It’ll also keep track of my book-goal!

Write more reviews. Reviews are so much fun and I don’t write them enough. I’m going to write and post some on here for you all to read!

Art:

Crochet a blanket. Last year’s goal. Again.

Design more outfits. I love design and don’t do it enough. So I’ll focus on that more this year.

Finish a cross stitch. Sadly, I’ve got three of these in the process right now and I really need to finish and frame one!

Redesign bedroom. After my room’s painted I really want to completely change it’s look to suit me more than it does now. More design work! I love design work!

Draw more. I love drawing and have always done it, but this year that passion’s sort of dissolved due to time lack.

Life:

Smile more. Supposedly I have a nice smile?! I just don’t use it enough. So, I want to start to use it more!

Sleep better. I am constantly tired and I really need to sleep better. Maybe not staying up really late reading.

Procrastinate less. I procrastinate WAY too much. It’s probably really bad for me. Why don’t I just get on and do stuff?!

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Stay motivated. I need to stay motivated to accomplish things. Got any ideas?

Become more organised. I’m not at all organised. Everything in my room is just shoved into places so I can find them by taking everything apart. With my new room, I’ll sort this out!

Spend more time outside. do spend time outside. But not enough. It’s probably a good idea to change that!

Don’t get too stressed/anxious. I get stressed at tiny things. One of the cons of being a perfectionist. And…being stressed makes me angry and me being angry is. Not. Good.

Stretch daily. I stretch a couple of times a week and if I remember. I really need to stretch more often because my flexibility skyrockets and then plummets. And my muscles get really, really, really sore.

Try yoga. Does anyone know what this is about? Have you tried it? I really want to. Maybe it’ll help with my sore runner muscles.

Make new friends. I should do this. I’m starting at a new school, I know no one… I should make friends.

Continue to eat healthier. I’ve been eating healthily for the past year and I want to keep that way.

Drink more water. I don’t drink anything like enough water. I really need to drink more because apparently it’s good for you?! REALLY?!

Big, Overall Goals:

Finish what I start. Yeah. Procrastination does not help with this!

Challenge/Push myself. My teacher told me to do this. I really do need to as well.

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So, my very long goals list! I’ll have to keep track of it somehow!

What are your goals for 2018? Do you think mine are achievable? Are your’s achievable? Also, do you want to collab or do a guest post with/for me?

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